So I guess I could update y'all, or something.

First, I think I use the word "So" quite a bit. Just thought of that when I was typing the title. Meh.

Anyhow. What's new with me? Not a whole lot, really. Still at my job. But of course, you knew that. I don't know what it is about leaving that I just can't conquer. I mean, I guess it's the "FEAR OF THE UNKNOWN." Could be that. I mean, could I guarantee that I make the same, if not more, at another job? Would I have to wait to get benefits again? And how long of a wait? I can't really afford NOT to have benefits with my allergies and other monthly prescriptions. Not that I'm in the worst of health, but I get sick at least TWICE a year.

Then there's the comfort factor. I know my job, the people I work with, my daily routine. Sigh.

Don't think I'm moving out. Something came up that made me realize Boo may not be as reliable as once thought to be. I'm kinda bummed. I really was looking forward to kinda having my own joint again. I'm really trying to look at my finances and think about things, see if I could move out on my own. But I doubt I could. Harumph.

It's probably best for me to stay home. The money I would spend on gas will probably still turn out to be LESS than I'd pay for rent and all that other fun crap that goes along with living on your own. But I'm keeping an open mind in case an opportunity presents itself.

Besides, really, I'm worried about the Dragon. I mean, running GREAT right now. And yes, it's a Honda. But it has over 206,000 miles on it. Is another 2 years really possible? Sigh. Money, money, money. It's a rich man's world.

(Love ABBA)

What else? Well, I guess you could say I'm "talking" to someone now. We've been talking about 3 weeks now. Text each other during the day, and usually talk for about an hour or longer each night. He's a friend of a friend and just really makes me laugh. We can crack jokes, as I say, He sets it up and I knock it down. Teamwork, teamwork.

I THINK he likes me, but I'm not sure. I mean, I heard he was asking around about me, and the other night he put in for my part of dinner. He's always asking if I'm coming down for the weekend, telling me to call him, keep him updated on things when I'm down there. When I made mention of joining a group of friends to Vegas, he said he was really gonna try to go now.
I told him I may have Friday off, and he said he might take that day off. I told him last week that I had Thursday off and was thinking of heading to Joliet Junior College to settle up some school things. He was disappointed because if he knew I had the day off earlier he would have taken the day off too.

Now, these are good signs, right? But he hasn't asked me on a date yet. Sure, we've hung out in a group situation, and talked on in the living room at John's when everyone else was outside. But we haven't had just strictly one on one time.

He did say the other night when we were talking that he likes a girl to let him know she wants him. Did I miss a sign? Was that him trying to let me know to let him know? Isn't it obvious? But then, maybe it isn't. Cuz I'm sitting here asking the same thing, right?

My thing is, I want to be pursued. I want someone to chase me. Ask me out, I'm the girl, DAMMIT! Haha.

But would I necessarily have to ask him out? Fresh gave me the idea of just asking in conversation, "So when are we gonna go out?"

But I really like him, I have that butterfly feeling. I get all giggly and schoolgirl when thinking about him (which is a feeling I haven't had in a long time). I get nervous around him, can't even make eye contact. What if he just wants to be friends? What if...there's so many what ifs. What if he likes me, but doesn't know what to do because of religious differences? He's the first born son to Muslim parents. He's dated a non-Muslim girl before. The parents didn't condone it outright, but never really made her feel too comfortable. I know how families can be about situations.

Then I smack myself because I wonder, am I over analyzing again? Sigh.

I'm just impatient. I'm Instant Gratification Girl! I want results NOW, damn you, NOW!

I'll just keep taking things slow. I'm trying to get subtle hints in there, and for me, subtle is not something I'm really good at. Haha.

Other than that, just working. Got a few trips coming up that I'm looking forward to. It will be nice to just get away. Even for only a weekend. It's amazing how long a weekend can be sometimes!

So please, comment. Tell me I'm a dork. Tell me to relax. Tell me, just TELL ME!

I'm going to bed now. I slept decently for once in the past week and a half. Hoping for a repeat performance this evening. Now if I could just crawl in bed without turning that damn TV on...

Wish me luck!